Unless and until we know what we truly want in our lives, the universe will have no idea how to help us get it. And, we will have no idea if we’ve already achieved it.”
Sarah Roberts (@Sarahtalksfood)
When I read what my dear friend Sarah wrote, it got me thinking:
I remember years ago when I first started The Suburban Monk. I was having what would be one of my many meltdowns (what can I say?). In this one, I was crying to my husband that I didn’t know how to move forward and that it was over. And he said to me, “Ellen, you are already a success. You created Syd. Every day you get messages or emails from strangers thanking you. Even though we went through a lot of our money, I could not be prouder when I look at you.” That made me feel so good (until the next meltdown of course. . . ha, ha!).
Fast forward to the last couple of months when our home has been turned upside down with a new puppy, a son moving back home after graduating college, and did I mention the puppy. . . overall, I have been a bit unglued. Then I woke up yesterday and I went for a walk in the park early in the morning, I ate really clean foods, I sat in my office for about 5 hours straight working on the part of my business that I hate (Quickbooks. Can you tell me how I was an accountant for 30 years and now having to go near it sends me over the edge?). To my own surprise, in the middle of the 5 hours, I thought, “I am so happy.” I noticed myself grounded and not procrastinating (which means I skipped the manic anxiety!).
Syd helping Ellen get over Quickbooks anxiety
Being present and productive with the work I usually resist, even while my house has been turned upside down, is an achievement that I didn’t even realize I wanted until that moment when I remembered that this is how I want to feel. I am clear and grateful that my life is magical and expansive. I am co-creating with an amazing group of women. I am also co-creating a new product line with another amazing woman (not allowed to talk about it yet). I have a tribe–actually a few–that I adore. I have an awesome family. And when going through my stuff–because we ALL have our stuff–I have an awesome team for support. Life is really good.
I’ve learned that what I want in my life depends on the moment. When in the office, I wanted my body to not fight sitting there for 5 hours, and when I asked my angels, I swear that a calm came over me. When I met with my peeps at our favorite hangout, Thought in Motion Creation Café, to continue our co-creation, I asked ahead of time for clarity as to whether I wanted to continue. And as I sat there with the seven of us, I felt such joy.
When I ask, the Universe answers. But when I forget to ask, or don’t have the clarity, not too much happens. I continue to get clarity on what I want more of (so the Universe can answer) but it all feels like icing on the cake (oh dear, my food metaphors again, Sarah, help).
Clarity is key. Action is key. Gratitude for all I have is key.
I love my life and I love all of you.
I hope your summer is amazing.
What would you like the Universe to give you?
Please share. I could discuss these things all day.