I did something really hard yesterday. I withdrew from my Shakti Dance Teacher Training.
Why would I do this? I loved those woman and our dear teacher Dharma like crazy. I looked forward to the Friday nights of our long weekends. We would be doing a beautiful devotional moving meditation and the sun would be setting, in this beautiful sacred space and I would think “there is nowhere else I would rather be.”
About a month ago, I was really sick and cried the whole week. On some level, I knew that this wasn’t about being sick but I was shedding a layer. The purging wasn’t fun but right after that powerful full moon, I was finally better and the insights started to come. I knew that leaving SDTT was one of them but I couldn’t actually do it until yesterday. Endings are so hard for me even when I know it is the right thing.
When I quit Corporate life, there was nothing logical about it, but I knew down deep it was time, that my soul had more experiences to have. I was being guided. But it was really hard. But as Glennon Doyle Melton says “We can do hard things.” Thankfully, I listened because I went on to create The Suburban Monk and my soul has grown by leaps and bounds.
The same is true here. I love Shakti Dance and my new tribe but my soul is leading the way and I must listen.
I am so grateful for the 6 months I have put into learning Shakti Dance because it has gotten me to this point. I have shifted yet again and it is the coolest feeling.
As I was feeling sad, Raven reminded me of all the other endings over the years and how I went through the same thing. I hate endings. I am a Virgo and we are so loyal. Yet I have learned that I must first be loyal to my Self, that inner knowing. It has never let me down.
I am in this awesome stretch where I feel healthy, happy and so energized. I get to pick from so many crazy wonderful things to do.
At the beginning of SDTT I gifted everyone a Syd. So I hope when they look at Syd they feel me with them. I love you all and we will always be connected.
Live. Laugh. Wahe Guru!
What has moving on from something opened up for you?
Please share. I could discuss these things all day.